For so many years I experienced the birthday blues. I used to look forward to my special day and when it came, I didn't feel the happiness. Why? Perhaps because I wasn't happy with myself, even though I thought I was. I have a great husband, I survived cancer, I have a great life and great people in it. What else can I want?
Little did I know--I was masking all the pain that I felt inside. I was inside my own cocoon. I really wasn't happy and didn't like myself. It took an eye opener for me to really dig deep inside and make a determination to change my lifestyle.
It's NOT easy, I work at it every day, but the results have been amazing. This year I loved my birthday. I can really say I celebrated my life. All my blessings were not taken for granted and for the first time I feel free. I have been re-born.
Besides being blessed with a wonderful husband, I have been blessed with a wonderful brother. He took me to see a Yankee game and I never phantom that I would see my name in the middle of Yankee Stadium marquee congratulating me for all my achievements. It was totally amazing!!!
On September 22, I walked the NYC Walk to Beat the Clock for a cause very dear and near to my heart as a cervical cancer survivor. This was my fourth year walking and the best of them all. I walked stronger, healthier and happier than years past. What a difference a year makes.
|Last Year vs. This Year- "NYC Walk to Beat the Clock 2012"|
I could go on and on with so many great things that has happened this month, but I won't bore you. Just know that this year has been an amazing one for me and hope it continues, but I am also ready for those bumps on the road.
For those people that have been wondering if I ate cake on my birthday, the answer is YES!! Absolutely!! I even ate a "Flan" without feeling any guilt whatsoever. For me, that's a big accomplishment because I always felt guilty after I used to indulge, leading me into a binging episode since I thought "WTH, I already messed up". The difference now is that I know when to STOP and I'm OK with it. It's a new ME!!!
Cheers to a new year!!!!
|I got a Bravo! from my Target Weight Phone Application|
Deprivation is not living without certain foods but living with them and being deprived of your true health and happiness!!!! ~ Julia Harvey